breaking the cycle

since the beginning of the year, i've felt conflicted:

i want to "lose weight."

i want to "get healthy."

basically, this is code for wanting to be skinny.

but, i know that my body doesn't do "skinny."

i run 2 miles most mornings, and walk a little afterwards.

i feel like my body is healthy, but not skinny.

why aren't i happy with healthy?

at the beginning of the year, there was a conflict of messages in the stream of blogs that i read - one would say, "it's a new year and i'm finally going to lose this extra weight!" while another would proclaim, "let's just all accept ourselves and stop talking about weight completely!" i didn't feel drawn to either camp. i don't want to let go of all weight goals, but i don't want to be held hostage by those same goals. i am so sick of weighing how i feel about myself based on my weight! i am sick of my running negative internal dialogue when i have a "bad" day on the scales! if someone talked to kalei the way i sometimes talk to myself, i would be all over them in a heartbeat - in less than a heartbeat. why in the world would i want to raise her to talk to herself that way?!

this morning, i read this.

i will not worship this weight idol any more. the weaning process will be long and hard at times, but i look at my daughter and think that i owe it to her (and myself) to break this cycle.

she's worth it, and so am i.

deal alert!

hello! i promise we have updates and pictures to post (and we'll get to it soon - the kitchen photos are very exciting!), but i wanted to share this awesome deal!! for everyone who wants to purchase 'tangled,' disney has a coupon for $5 off the dvd/blu-ray/3d/digital copy version, and target has this version for $25, so you can get all those copies for just $20!!! WOW!!!

you can find the coupon here. (you have to sign up for movie rewards, but as far as i can tell, you're not roped into anything dubious.) also, once you buy the movie, you can go back to disney movie rewards and get a free 'tangled' charm bracelet! (shipping extra, of course.)

just wanted to share! hope your week is fabulous!!

UPDATE: the shipping & handling for the charm bracelet is $2.85! yay! (and will be here in 6 - 8 weeks - boo.)

eye-opening

i just read this online - a quick read, but really thought-provoking. reading it, i wanted to run and hug my kiddos, but also show them how other children around the world live - not to scare them, but just to widen their perspective a bit. i think we'll plan a family home evening lesson around it, and include lots of discussion.

edited to add:
p.s. i want to say that this seems to be a collection of extremes - at least i didn't see any examples from the u.s. that i felt represented my kids' rooms (especially that princess' room from kentucky - wow - so NOT kalei's room). still, though, my heart aches for the kids that live in these extremes, that this is their reality. i want my kids to be aware - not scared or insecure, hence the loads of discussion - but aware that we are lucky, and we can help.

6!

this little man is now 6!

WHERE DOES THE TIME GO?!

a week or two ago, koa & i found these christmas poppers on clearance at pier 1 - he thought they'd be fun for his birthday, and i thought they'd be cheap entertainment for $2.

(he was really excited to open them, if you can't tell.) woohoo! nothing screams "happy birthday!!" like tissue paper crowns and british jokes. the kids loved it. especially the slight explosion when the poppers were popped.

the day after his birthday, we celebrated at chuck e. cheese! it was our family's first time at this interesting establishment. the kids had a fabulous time. they loved the pizza and the games and redeeming their tickets for prizes. we won't be back until james & i are fully recovered from this time - it'll be awhile. koa went to tae kwon do on saturday and told his instructor that his birthday was february 10th and 11th - chuck e. cheese was that exciting!

the top picture is from koa's birthday (5 days ago). the bottom picture is from yesterday. we asked koa to not ever ask for snow on his birthday again. he was unrepentant and enjoyed their week off of school to the hilt.

we love you, koa!! happy birthday, little man!

happy valentine's day!

the kids love getting balloons for special occasions (and i love the dollar tree's balloons), so we sweetened today with some lovey mylars, little debbie valentine cakes in lunches, and dinner served on (thrift store) china with blue kool-aid. do they look thrilled? cause, believe me, they were. really. okay, maybe i was the one super excited about the china, and the kids were psyched about the kool-aid. what is it about fancy dishes that makes everyone happy about what they're eating? note to self: MUST TRY THIS MORE! we hope you all have had a day filled with love and a few pleasant surprises!

p.s. the heart shots are for bethany - since kawelo has us quarantined with his hacking cough, i can't have her over to show her the magic i made with some paper mache hearts - i really love how they turned out! yay - decorations i'm happy to keep!

deal alert!

good morning!!

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koa quotes

scene: koa is sprinkling valentine's nonpareils onto brownie bites after mama douses them with dipping chocolate (TOTALLY delicious and super easy, by the way)

koa: i'm on the fast side.

mama: the fast side of what?

koa: you know, how some people are on the fast side, and some are on the slow side?

mama: that's good to know. which side am i on?

koa: the slow side.

thanks a lot, little man! (he's just so cute i want to smoosh him!)