okay, it's one of those days. already. and it's like, what, 9:30 in the morning? swell. i woke up with a pulled neck muscle (how the heck does that happen?!), the boys are in hyper/deaf mode, the house is a mess (seriously), and i just sliced my finger open with my sewing scissors (not like the time last week when i sliced my finger open with childrens' safety scissors - these scissors went a bit deeper). ugh!!!!! now, i know this is the point where i'm supposed to say that i will choose to be happy and laugh off all the junk that's got me down and trade up on my attitude.
not happening.
i'm tired. i'm tired of rain. i'm tired of disappointment. i'm tired of little guys getting screwed by businesses/corporations/medical professions because there's nothing they can do about it. i'm tired of the treadmill. i'm tired of feeling guilty for not loving vegetables. i'm tired of crappy drivers and slow mail and health care debate and debt/budgeting and self-control!
deep breath.
right now, i will just try to be grateful. i'm grateful that i still have enough self-awareness to stop myself from going to any store where i might purchase a bb gun, a giant chocolate cake, and/or hair dye. i'm grateful to be able to get up in the morning, even if it hurt today. i'm grateful for sticky little boy kisses. i'm grateful for baby wipes. i'm grateful for washing machines (for clothes and dishes). i'm grateful for a loving heavenly father, who lets me have days that pull me out of my bubble, and who never leaves me to suffer alone.
i promise i have better news to post about, but i just needed to get it out, you know? thanks for listening.
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I'm feeling a little the same ... blah! I think we should have a slumber party, like we did as kids, only at this one we really just sleep! Ha! Wouldn't that be heaven?!! Forget about all the tough things in life and sleep - sounds incredibly wonderful. But, it isn't going to happen, at least anytime soon, and even if it did I'd probably be worried enough about something that sleep would elude me! Seems to be life as a mom lately in an increasingly crazy world!!! So, pull up your boots girl! I know you can do it! I love you and think you are an incredible mother, sister and friend :)
:( feeling any better?
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